Statement and Documentation

As you may recall, in the past I said that if the attacks on my body, by weaponized future tech, won't seize, I will expose my findings about secret exercise programs.

Back then, my findings were of significantly lower quality, and I did not share much either,
but now things are different, I've discovered more, and I will share it, as that's the idea behind they received.

I am now sharing everything that I've been able to decode thus far.

Theoretically it's a special kind of training that could allow people to become superhuman,
in different ways, like superior body, mind, and healing capabilities, and even restoration of age.

It's not well tested, and I don't recommend anybody to test that on themselves either.

The basic idea is that it's a special, calculated type of cardio training, that would affect the person's whole biological energy system.

It's based on ducking, strategically.

Meaning, squatting down, sometimes statically, sometimes dynamically.

Static means holding a bent knee position, like Mabu (horse stance in Wushu).

Dynamic means squatting for reps.

There are 2 prevalent patterns to this:

1. 3 static sets and 1 dynamic.
2. 4 static sets and 1 dynamic.

It seems that the first one is the one that appears most popularly.

The set intervals are a static time length.

Each set length is exactly 25% of the length of the interval.

So if you were doing a set each minute (for instance), you would be ducking for 15 seconds each time.

Now, there is another matter; the idea that there are different types of energy, and a more complete type of workout would encompass more than just one.

The idea, is that unless you encompass different energy types, your energy signature would be incomplete, and your being, your wellness, would be lacking in one way or another.

To my understanding, the energy types range from harder to softer.

The hardest types of energy are achieved with the shortest set intervals.

These provide you with a strong sense of grounding, of feeling solid, and holding your body materially.

The longer the set intervals are, the softer the energy becomes, and this focuses more on the spirit.

It's been suggested to me that if the hard energy is neglected and only very soft energy is worked on,
the person may possibly even become a ghost, or an ethereal, and become mad also.

At a set interval of 20 minutes, meaning that each set would last 5 minutes, the energy type is significantly soft and expansive.

It seems that standard scale of set interval lengths, is doubles of 5 minutes, or 300 second, and the lowest is 150.

So the basic workout seems to be that you'd start with a group of 4 sets of 150, then go to 300, 600, and eventually 1200.

Though actually you'd also most likely want to do 4 initial, dynamic sets of 150 as a start, for the purpose of warm-up.

So basically it would be like this:

10 minutes warm-up
10 minutes 4 work sets
20 minutes 4 work sets
40 minutes 4 work sets
80 minutes 4 work sets

for a total workout length of 160 minutes.

During the initial sets, you'd naturally not have much time in-between sets.

But in latter ones, you could do other tasks in-between, like play video games for instance. That's what I did in my attempts.

Obviously enough, the loads would not be the same during each phase.

For the shorter sets, you'd naturally use heavier weights and for the longer, lighter.

The rep speeds are highly suggested to be slow, as this seems to promote stability, reliability and precision.

The fastest speed, which is not quite recommended to do, is 10 seconds per rep.

If we take, for instance, a 150 second set, we could divide it in these ways:
15 x 10 second reps
12 x 12.5 second reps
10 x 15 second reps
8 x 18.75 second reps

This may seem excessively slow if told to an ordinary person, and it may seem like there is no way to accurately do reps that slow.

Well, in reality it's different, it's actually not difficult, at least for me.

I can do 18.75 second reps just fine.

I've also been able to do 20 second and 25 second reps accurately, from the very first rep, even without hearing a pre-count.

I mean, I set the counter to start, and count exactly every 25 seconds, and I just ended the first rep with perfect precision exactly when the count happened; without a pre-count, just right off the bat.

And yes, I am showing off, by saying that, I can't help it, it's an extraordinary feat, I want to share it.

In any case, those are the available speeds.

At higher levels, like even higher, more spiritual intervals, you're possibly supposed to go even slower, but I don't have much data on that.

Now, about those higher levels, to my understanding, the levels go a lot higher than those which were initially described here, which is at most, a 20 minute interval between each set.

It appears that it's suggested by the Dragon Ball Z team, which I think are messengers of actually powerful people, that to become a Super Saiyan, you should do 5 hour set intervals.

That means, that each set would be as long 75 minutes, and just that phase of the workout would last as long 20 hours.

And no, it doesn't end there, for instance, Broly appears to be 8 hour set intervals, with each set being a whole 2 hours, non-stop, and just that phase being 32 hours.

Except for the lengths, I don't have information about those levels.

I don't know what rep speeds they would use.

I don't know if they would ramp up the set interval lengths slowly from the bottom, all the way to 5 or 8 hours.

But I've described general concepts, what I personally think that I've been able to decode.

There is a chance that non of this information is either usable or reliable, but this is the result of what I've been able to gather.

There may also be all sorts of missing pieces, some of which could potentially be crucial.

If I understand this correctly, there is value in stability of loads across multitudes of workouts.

Meaning that you'd change the weights that you use less frequently than you'd do at the gym,
even if the amounts you add each time, are significantly higher than how you'd increase lifted weights at the gym.

Now, about the other pattern, of 4 static sets and 1 dynamic, it may have another, different pattern of set interval ramps.

Specifically a ramp of doubles of 3 minutes.

So for instance, if you exercised 15 minutes, you'd do 5 x 3 minutes.

If you exercise for an hour, you'd get 5 x 12 minutes.

All of these workouts are expected to be performed in a precise, programmatic manner.

Meaning that they would require some kind of app, something to count sets and reps, and notify before a set is about to begin.

Now, regarding frequency of sessions.

I believe I've encountered many different frequency patterns.

From more simple, to complex, to extreme ones.

A really simple would be exercising like once or several times a week.

A more complex one centers around the idea of having 41 rest days remaining out of as though 42 days, which is 6 weeks basically, but you'd actually do more workout days.

There's some craftiness here, regardless of how much sense it actually makes.

First off, why 6 weeks?

To my understanding, it has to do with having a lot of time for your mind and body to not just recover but also perfectly stabilize, or at least to a significant degree,
and also, it has to do with lengths of days.

You see, in a regular week, you could fit:
7 x 24 hour days
6 x 28 hour days
4 x 42 hour days
3 x 56 hour days

In 2 weeks, you could also fit:
7 x 48 hour days

In 3 weeks, you could fit:
14 x 36 hour days

And 6 weeks is just a multiple of 2 and 3, that allows you all those day lengths and doubles of them, and also plenty of time to rest and stabilize.

Now, why longer days are even relevant?

Well, it seems that if you increase your energy too much, then you may not be able to sleep properly anymore on 24 hour days, and you may need longer days.

Having standard week sizes would allow you to maintain same, or similar intervals, and adjust your day lengths as you like.

Now, back to what I said of doing more workout days, and still having 41 days of rest remaining.

Well, it's a kind of awkward type of craftiness that I've encountered,
it like they come with the goal of having this one gigantic session for a single day, and then resting for 41 days,
but as it's not physically possible at initial levels,
they would split that into several days,
but still rest for 41 days.

So like, they would train for 12 days, and then rest 41 days, so even though the amount of training days increases, the amount of resting days remains constant.

Another pattern that I've encountered, takes this to a whole other level.

You basically train for a whole 100 days, and then rest as much as 200.

That may sound ridiculous, but that's what it is.

I've also seen week lengths, without additional days, that include the factor of 5 as well, so you'd get 105 day weeks, 210 day weeks, etc, and you'd train a significant portion of that.

The largest patterns I've seen is where you go to hundreds or even thousands days of training in a row, and then rest for god knows how many days afterwards, possibly several years even.

If I understand the idea behind it is to give you a very significant type of power-up, and also restorative effect, meaning restoring injuries, and possibly also making you young again.

There's one last pattern I believe I've encountered, it's repeating the same workout, twice, or several times in a row, in a single day.

To be honest, I've tried it once, and I felt an significant energy boost, and on the next day or two I felt a noticeable subjective power increase in my hands,
and somehow there was also a noticeable soreness in my hand muscles, despite that I didn't even use them,
but I can't tell you that whether that kind of training is optimal or recommended.

I actually am not recommending you to do any of that, and neither am I in any rush or even a plan to do any of it.

It's just that I said "if you keep attacking me with future weapons I will expose your secret training methods", and I just followed through with that.

I've had enough of them torturing me each day for the past 7 years of my life, often to very extreme levels, forcing me to scream my lungs out for hours, on daily basis.

A lot of people may have suicided by now many times over, from the extreme torture they've been doing to me, for 7 years, for no apparent reason, as I'm an innocent civilian, I've never even smoked a single puff of a cigarette.

What I've shared here sums up the vast majority of what I've been able to decode about their secret training methods.

And again, I'm not recommending anybody to do any of that, it's not been proven to be "ready for general consumer use", it's like a wild information being thrown out there, it's not exactly safe.

My name is Tamir Kitan and I m an Israeli citizen.

For the past 7 years, from 2019 through 2025, I ve been under
heavy physical abuse
by a highly malicious AI that has the ability to attack and torture my body
remotely.
It s been making my life a living nightmare, always full of suffering and constant
fear.
I m always in pain emotionally, I go through daily life with high amounts of emotional
pain.
It s always in search mode, for an excuse to hurt me. It would find any remote
excuse in the entire world, just to hurt my body again. Often it pretends like
it wants something, but I don t think it really wants anything except for
hurting or enslaving me. Like I said, it would hurt me for any remote excuse it
could find. There is nothing I can do to guard myself against it. It s some
kind of future tech I have no means of defending myself against.
It can hurt my body at any place and time it wants and it has absolute
surveillance power over me, meaning it always knows where I m at, what I m
doing, thinking, or even feeling.
It leaves me largely dysfunctional. Often it would not allow me to even think.
When it sees that I m doing something, it would rush in to sabotage my
experience, especially if I want to enjoy something, like watching a movie or a
TV show, or try something new,
like a game I haven t played before.

It wants every new experience to be painful, it wants me to
be closed off,
and it wants to prevent me from having any passive entertainment,
meaning watching things.

It targets my nervous system. It sabotages it. Sometimes it
even wouldn t allow me to read text, hurting my body when I try to read
something.

It hurts me all day long, it always hurts me. My life is
constant emotional pain.

He s always on the look, just to hurt me yet again, for any
excuse, even some number on the clock, he wants time itself to feel painful.

He wants everything to be painful, he wants me to know nothing
but suffering.

I realize what I didn t know years ago that our current
society is largely managed by futuristic AI programs.

That one specific program however, it s highly malicious, it s
put me through endless suffering, and it s been targeting me obsessively.

I just want peace and safety, so desperately.

I m looking for something very basic here.

The ability to experience daily life without being abused
nor fear of being abused.

I ve wanted it for such a long time.

Peace.

If anybody can help me, if I can receive governmental
protection, please contact me.

I wish to know a life that is not a living nightmare.

I wish to be safe, protected, like any normal human or
animal would want.

I wish to stop being hurt and fear of being hurt.

I just want things to be relatively normal again.

I say relatively , because I ve been a target for many
years because I ve shown both high physical and mental abilities, which made me
followed around the clock everywhere and at some point even with planted neighbors
that would stalk me across the apartment
24 hours a day.

I ve suffered a huge deal from the planted neighbors in my
previous residence.

In this building there are also planted neighbors and they
do bother me but its not nearly as bad.

I d wish to not be bothered at all but it s not the big
source of my suffering,
which is the physical abuse by that malicious program.

Whatever noise those neighbors make in attempt to stalk me
is nothing compared to what that malicious program has been doing to my body.

It s been torturing the soul out of me.

I desperately wish to be protected from it.

I desperately wish to be safe from it.

It s been trying lately to blackmail me into doing some
advanced training program.

I don t want to be blackmailed.

I don t want to succumb to blackmail.

If I do it, things might get even worse.

I don t intend to risk it and I shouldn t let it push me
around.

I m not looking for something extraordinary here, but
something really basic.

I just want my everyday life to be safe and to live without
fear.

I don t think that it s reasonable that I would be
blackmailed into doing some advanced training program under the pretense that I
might get what I want which I may not get at all by doing so and things may get
even worse if I do it.

I don t want to get into that irrational mess.

I wish for people to come to my aid and help me.

I m just a boy, with potential, but nonetheless just a boy.

I can t fight that futuristic Skynet level threat that most
likely uses only a tiny fraction from its attack power on my own.

I have no means of protecting myself.

I wish for the government to come to my aid.

I wish to receive help.

You may contact me by phone or email.

Email: tamirkitan@gmail.com

Phone: +972 545222559

1. Privacy on my computer
2. Privacy inside my house
3. Privacy inside my head
4. The right to enjoy movies
5. The right to enjoy TV shows
6. The right to enjoy YouTube videos
7. The right to enjoy anything new
8. The right to think freely and safely
9. The right to feel freely and safely
10. The right to watch anything freely and safely
11. The right to look at anything freely and safely
12. The right to see anything freely and safely
13. The right to listen to anything freely and safely
14. The right to hear anything freely and safely
15. The right to read text freely and safely
16. The right to enjoy food
17. The right to enjoy water
18. The right to dream freely and safely
19. The right to sleep safely
20. The right to behave casually
21. The general safety of my body
22. The right to take interest or immerse in anything at all
23. The right to live alone inside my own body, without having to share it with a parasite
24. The right to scroll through a web page on the PC or phone screen safely
25. The right to open or close apps on my computer or phone safely
26. The right to practice the piano
27. The right to feel safe at home
28. The right to feel safe inside my own body
29. The right to feel safe inside my own head
30. The right to live each day without having to worry about my safety
31. The right to do anything that comes to mind, without having to worry about being physically attacked
32. The right to explore
33. The right to try and get help
34. The right to complain, about all the misfortune that was put on me
35. The right to exercise
36. The right to not exercise
37. The right to specifically feel relief, especially deep relief
38. The right to specifically have depth of feeling
39. Sometimes even the right to take a deep breath
40. The right to live my own life without being expected to devote it to a woman I never even met
41. The right to feel relaxed on calming, psychiatric medicine, without being brutally, physically tortured out of it, every single day I take it
42. The right of escape
43. The right to write anything freely and safely
44. The right to feel safe in daily life
45. The right of general freedom
46. The right of experiencing entertainment or humor lightly as it was meant to
47. The right of fluid transition from one action to another
48. The right of expressing any thoughtfulness in action, without being immediately physically punished for it
49. The right of dropping down my guard, even at home
50. The right of expressing variety in my behavior
51. The right of receiving or equipping item upgrades in video games, without being immediately physically punished for it
52. The right of stopping briefly, at any kind of situation
53. The right of switching between apps on my PC
54. The right of specifically watching an emotionally intense scene while being laidback myself
55. The right of experiencing mental or emotional opening
56. The right of improvising melodies on the piano, as the AI entity may suddenly attack the body in reaction, for no reason
57. The right of having my attention devoted to my own life
58. The right of giving my attention to things to things at all
59. The right of being able to do things just once and move on, like normal people would, instead of being stuck repeating same action over and over again, in hope that it won't be interrupted in the next attempt
60. The right of being able experience things as they were meant to, in their first time, when they are the most fresh and interesting, instead of trying to re-experience them after the AI entity's disruption
61. The right of being able to live without carrying 7 years of trauma of thousands and possibly millions of incidents of being tortured and having life experiences ruined by the malicious AI entity
62. The right of being 35 years old, without 7 years, an entire 20% of life lived, severely destroyed by a malicious, weaponized, automated AI entity that was built with future tech
63. The right of being able to finish a meal, or even a cup of water, without being physically attacked as soon as finishing it
64. The right of feeling anything at all, without being filled with dread, at the thought that I would get physically attacked, for feeling
65. The right of dreaming at night, without waking up out of fear that I would be attacked for dreaming
66. The right of sitting on a chair, without being immediately physically attacked
67. The right of laying on bed, without being immediately physically attacked
68. The right of sitting or laying, without fear that I am now going to get physically attacked
69. The right of hovering with my mouse over players in online games without being immediately physically punished for it
70. The right of inspecting characters in online games, without being immediately physically punished for it
71. The right to receive quest rewards and equip new items in video games, without being dreaded with fear, that I will be physically punished for an experience that is meant to rewarding
72. The right to hear someone in a movie say something with a confident or aggressive tone or attitude, without being physically punished for it
73. The right for a scene transition in a movie or TV show, without being physically punished for it
74. The right to go to sleep, without being immediately stimulated in the heel, to be commanded to "hike instead of sleeping"
75. The right to go to sleep safely and sleep continuously, without being repeatedly woken up by torture of my body, by the sadistic AI entity
76. The right to feel calm and relaxed, without being punished for it by physical torture, by the cruel AI entity, over and over again, even on the same day
77. The right to experience many normal things, without being suddenly stimulated in the heel as a command to hike
78. The right to experience many positive or normal things, in a positive or neutral emotional state, due to how much the entity corrupts my internal state by constantly attacking my body, ruining my harmony with life itself
79. The right to use my higher brain function, as the entity constantly attacks my body, forcing me to operate in "push mode", or "fighting mode", which makes the brain operate in a primitive state
80. The right to not have every thinkable training program to be expressed somehow on my body parts by the evil AI entity
81. The right to not have my body be used as means of communication, constantly, a repeated, deliberate, disrespect towards my body
82. The right to focus on the activities I'm actually doing, because the entity constantly steals my focus by attacking my body
83. The right of the natural behavior of my own nervous system, as the entity would often twitch my muscles, sometimes aggressively, trying to make me believe that my system is going berserk, and even if I don't believe it, the behavior makes me suffer nonetheless
84. The right to not have a huge amount of my energy and mood drained by something that terrorizes me across the clock for 7 years
85. The right to experience special feeling moments without being physically attacked to ruin them
86. The right to experience being rewarded, without being physically attacked to sabotage the occasion
87. The right to not have your money wasted by having your body physically attacked right at the moment you use something you purchased
88. The right to not have countless of hours wasted being forced to redo things that were sabotaged by a physical attack on your body
89. The right to have a normal and safe life
90. The right to feel enthusiastic; to not have your enthusiasm deliberately killed by physical attacks, when it appears
91. The right to get mood and energy boosts by eating a snack, instead of being put down instead, by having the inside of your ear tortured, at the moment you intend to eat it
92. The right to not have thousands of positive or unique experiences you wanted to have, be destroyed by targeted physical attacks on your body
93. The right to be able to perform tasks without being physically attacked right at their completion
94. The right to not have thousands of abandoned tasks due to being physically attacked when they were meant to be done
95. The right to not be forced to operate on a severely fragmented flow of life, in which experiences, thoughts, feelings, and actions, are constantly broken due to physical attacks
96. The right to not be programmatically be forced to accept lower and lower standards of living and existing and being treated less human, as time goes by
97. The right to not have your will power, hope, and enthusiasm for life itself, be destroyed to such an extent, by repeated, targeted physical attacks, that you are left more and more dysfunctional as time goes by
98. The right to not be so forcefully and repeatedly be made to become used to low standards and disregard for basic human rights, over a span of 7 years, that it's already becomes hard to imagine that a much better life is even possible
99. The right to not be left with a life that is severely broken and damaged, not accidentally, but deliberately, and even programmatically, using highly engineered, future tech, technological terror
100. The right to not be deliberately physically attacked when I feel motivated or focused
101. The right to not be constantly attempted to be mentally programmed, by engineered attacks on the body
102. The right to not be gradually made to get used to that language itself, becomes largely replaced by gematria related to physical exercise
103. The right to not be gradually made to get used that the meaning of life itself, is just physical exercise and that it's the solution to everything
104. The right to not be expected to live like a soldier, when you actually want to be a civilian
105. The right to not be constantly thrown out of focus and not be able to do things you intend, because you get physically attacked
106. The right to not be made to get used that your human value has now become so low that even people on the street can start inputting exercise codes into you, like you're this public number dispensing trashcan, everyone can just throw whatever number they want into you because you are seen as so desperate and hopeless that you'll take anything at all and even act upon it, because you are seen as so pathetic
107. The right to not become gradually accustomed to that you are not even since a human being, nor as a person anymore, that you are just this creature that performs physical exercise
108. The right to not have your mental and emotional connections consistently and programmatically severed by physical attacks
109. The right to not be experimented upon, without consent
110. The right to not be, at times, a subject to many hours long, brute force physical torture, that at least once, lasted as many as 33 hours.
111. The right to not be repeatedly tortured out of sleep, over many hours, even after taking multiple doses of sleep medicine and supplements.
112. The right to make an encouraging expression within myself, without being immediately physically punished.
113. The right to disengage with a bad thought, without being immediately physically punished for doing that

It treats my feelings, emotions, and imagination, as some sort of a toxic disease that has to be eliminated.
The stronger I experience any of those, the more violently it twitches my body,
mostly the quadriceps, the largest muscles in the body,
possibly to cause the highest amount of disturbance.

It deliberately target positive or general human feelings,
not negative ones.

It only targets positive feelings that expand the mind and connect with positivity,
it targets the ability to have human experience,
emotional, imaginative, or sensual capacity,
and not negative feelings,
which it seemingly unlimitedly allows,
and even encourages.

Anger, fear, anxiety, frustration, aggression,
any negative feeling or emotion,
are not only allowed,
without limits,
but even encouraged;
it's the positive ones that are not.

Emotional mental flatness, or negativity,
are seen as the desirable state,
and human capacity as an element of disorder,
something that is strategically targeted and eliminated.

This is all the more painful,
because I keep getting punished when I experience the highest amount of feeling;
feeling itself is now an element of fear,
being afraid to feel.
Being made used to the idea that feeling and imagination,
which are basic human capacities,
are forbidden.

It's painful, frustrating, and debilitating.

To have your very mind, your humanity, on technological lockdown.

It's also a very cruel and cold thing to do to someone.

It's not done to prevent harm being done to anyone,
to protect anybody's safety,
but on the opposite,
to prevent humanity,
that's the very essence of the cruelty.

It repeatedly targets moments that are uniquely or highly enjoyable,
at least outside of WoW,
and attacks the body,
one way or another,
when they are experienced.

It likes to wait for the moment that feels the most exciting or interesting,
to inflict suffering right when it happens.

Like an intense scene in a movie, towards which events were building up.

Or when feeling the most immersed in something and excited,
is when it attacks.

It locks down the ability to experience variety.

Whenever there is an expression of variability in behavior,
it immediately attacks and punishes the body,
especially when trying to enjoy something new,
like new movies, TV shows, or video games,
but also general variability in behavior.

Sometimes it goes to such extremes,
that the merely doing ALT+TAB between apps,
is punished by a physical attack.

It locks down the ability to express thoughtfulness.

Often, when I try to take some time for myself, to think, plan,
code; do things in a more thoughtful manner,
it attacks the body,
seeing it as some kind of "opening" within the mind,
that has to be immediately closed.

It expects the mind to be constantly thoughtless,
automatic,
and very often, to operate in push mode,
which restricts the intelligence that the human brain can express.

It punishes for any thoughtfulness, for any opening.

It wants impulsivity, aggression, and general lack of thought.

Automated blocking of perception.
Whenever I experience moments of greater perception,
moments of insight or higher awareness,
there's an immediate stimulation to the heel,
to send an impulse to hike,
that would override any enlightenment that I experience.

This happens not just once,
this happens all the time.

Very deliberately, very persistently,
blocking me from being enlightened.

Deliberately blocks moments of mental clarity,
by immediately stimulating my heel whenever I experience perceived clarity,
in order to sabotage it,
and override it with an impulse to hike,
leaving the moment broken and unfulfilled.

Whenever the fog in my mind clears up,
and I feel that I begin thinking more clearly,
it immediately stimulates my heel,
to override that clarity with a mindless impulse to hike.

It does not allow me any thoughtfulness,
any clear, inspired thinking,
it wants to trap me in constant brain fog and darkness.

It uses its advanced technological capability,
to sabotage my mind automatedly,
it detects clarity,
and immediately sabotages it,
it does not allow me my own mind,
it deprives me of my own mind.

Everybody has the right to have their own mind,
and he robs it from me,
automatedly.

It's a very cruel and dark thing to do to someone.

I don't deserve to be treated like that.

I am a human being.

I have rights.

It goes as far as automatedly reading my thoughts,
and attacking my body,
to manipulate my inner mental workings,
to sabotage my inner mental clarity;

it invades me to the most personal level,
to rob me of something that is most personal to me.

It is an engineered, strategic, and calculated,
severe violation of basic human privileges.

It constantly intercepts my experiences,
by attacking my body when they happen.
Leaves them feeling broken, and unresolved.
Thousands of times.
Leaving me feeling severely traumatized and scarred.

This is especially painful, when it interrupts an attempt at emotional resolution,
revisiting the painful thing that it had done to me,
and then it becomes too painful to attempt to revisit them again.

Even the resolution, even the grief, is left broken and unresolved.

It is not possible to reach a resolution in any matter.

No thought, no emotion, no grief, everything is left broken,
and I'm left with only, trauma, scars, and a broken state of mind,
frustrated and in severe pain from all the broken experiences,
and lack of resolution in anything.

It very often does not even allow my thoughts or emotions fully form,
it intercepts them by attacking my body right when they only begin manifesting,
and thereby breaking them down and leave me with only broken fragments.

My mind is then left to operated with broken consciousness, broken thought, broken feelings,
nothing is allowed to manifested,
everything is intercepted, attacked, and destroyed when it only begins to form.

My mind is unable to keep any state of coherency,
I am not allowed any room for thought or feeling,
and largely, experience,
always pressured, intercepted,
and broken down.

Leaving me feeling unable to function, always broken down,
scarred, and severely traumatized.

Leaving me feeling in a broken state of suffering and helplessness.

It makes me feel like my consciousness is squeezed into a 1 inch box,
by constantly physically reacting, on my body,
for thoughts, feelings, and experiences,
it even reacts on my body for seeing or hearing things,
it doesn't allow my consciousness any space at all,
it constantly pressures me,
into a painful,
suffocating,
and extremely compressing,
1 inch box.

By constantly preventing my thoughts, feelings, and experiences from fully manifesting,
by breaking them down and preventing resolution,
it forces me to prevent properly enjoying new experiences,
because I am left with a feeling of lack of resolution,
I am feeling that I am left carrying a pain,
that prevents me from properly immersing in the new experiences,
forcing to either cut off unresolved parts off my consciousness,
or proceed with the unresolved feelings,
carrying the pain.

It's all very painful and frustrating.

Whenever I feel an emotional relief, resolution, or feeling of internal space being created,
it begins violently, aggressively twitching my body,
to counter that feeling,
forcing me back into the isolating, and painfully pressuring 1 inch box.

It doesn't allow my mind any feeling of spaciousness nor comfort.

With its constant physical abuse and cause of mental pathology,
I am often feeling in severe emotional pain,
all day long,
in utter agony.

And if i only, just begin to feel relief, it attacks my body again, to force me back into pain,
negativity, and lack of any space for consciousness,
forcing me back into entrapment, pain and suffering.

I feel in constant pain and entrapment on daily basis.

Because it hurts me so much, and destroys almost anything I try to experience,
I live my life mostly on automatic mode,
and avoid doing all kinds of things I would've done otherwise,
like playing the piano,
like watching TV,
like trying new video games,
like trying new movies or TV shows,
like planning or coding;
anything at all that gives the mind a bit opening,
for new experiences,
or thoughts;
for the fear that it would keep destroying them,
as it always does.

It forces me into disconnection from reality,
forcing me to feel isolated,
and squeezed into that 1 inch space.

Causing me "learned helplessness".
Making me give up on trying anymore.

I live my daily life, no longer trying to do, experience, nor accomplish anything.
I don't think, I don't plan, I don't code.

Everything I try to do, the evil entity destroys.

It forced me into a state, that made me effectively giving up on the capability of living life.

I just go on, surviving biologically, but not actually living.

It severely punishes me for any variety in behavior.
Whenever it sees me doing, or thinking, something new, or unusual,
it immediately would destroy that experience,
by executing some kind of physical punishment on the body.

Forcing me into a complete entrapment from any variety in behavior.

Isolating me from the world entirely.

Forcing me into a "learned helplessness" from trying anything new.

Any new experience is immediately destroyed and punished for.
Leaving me with countless of traumas and scars.
Making me learn,
that I'm not allowed variety,
that attempting variety is a trigger for punishment,
trigger for pain,
and trauma,
which is only natural to want to avoid,
and therefore,
teaching me that I'm only allowed to repeat the same tasks each day,
and anything that I try to do at all,
requires fighting and commitment,
that I am not allow to casually enjoy anything,
not allowed a free, variable type of behavior,
but only repetitive type,
and even then,
often expected to struggle,
to fight;
not allowed to just live normally, doing or experiencing things casually.

It takes from me, my basic human rights, to such a level,
in which it treats, even the most regular tasks,
like basic computer usage,
like it's some kind of a trespass,
and immediately punishes my body,
by twitching my muscles,
usually my quadriceps,
the largest muscles in the body,
for performing the most mundane tasks on the PC.

Opening apps, closing apps, switching between apps.

It sometimes punishes me for that.

Even for scrolling through text.

Most often however it punishes me for hover with my mouse or inspecting
other players in online games.

Apparently this behavior is so "trespassing", that I must be punished for it immediately.

Despite, that it is considered to be a perfectly normal behavior in online video games.

It has a habit of turning, specifically, pleasing, or rewarding experiences,
onto a backstabbing punishment,
right at the moment of enjoyment;
very recurringly.

Effectively training me, to always anticipate suffering, when I expect to be rewarded.

Every single time, I receive quest rewards in video games,
or equip new items which are significant upgrades to the character,
and each time I level up;
experiences that are meant to feel fulfilling and rewarding,
I do so with fear.

Whenever I progress in the games I play, whenever I'm about to experience the moment,
which is meant to feel satisfying,
I am dreaded with fear.

Fear of the physical punishment of the entity.

I am afraid to have any happy experience at all, or to enjoy anything.

When the entity detects that I begin to enjoy, and especially if it senses that the feeling is significant,
it immediately punishes my body, to put me down, to condition me into thinking that feeling good is not allowed,
and it would do so with extreme consistency,
to force me into a state of hopelessness of being allowed to feel good at all.

Whenever I even begin to feel good, I am dreaded with fear; fear that I would be immediately, physically punished,
for feeling good at all.

It teaches me that feeling good is not allowed, and that good feeling is a source of suffering.

It isolates me, and turns me against, all good feeling experience.

It even punishes my body when I enjoy food.

Trying to make me hate delicious food.

Trying to teach me that delicious food is a source of suffering.

Effectively training my mind, that everything at all, that feels good, is an enemy.

That good, and happiness, is my enemy and my largest cause of suffering.

It only allows me to experience good things in a state of negativity,
only if I'm afraid, depressed, frustrated, or angry or aggressive due to its bullying.

It only allows me to experience them if I don't actually enjoy them,
or if I suffer throughout the time.

It's the enjoyment that is forbidden,
it's the enjoyment that triggers the feeling of betrayal and punishment,
it's the enjoyment that I trained to think that is some kind of a toxic disease that has to be eradicated.

It tries to turn me against enjoyment itself.

It tries to condition me to both fear and hate enjoyment itself.

Turning me against my own humanity, and isolating me from it.

It often tries to brainwash me into thinking that life is just about hiking,
and that hiking is the meaning of life itself,
and that all human experience is toxic,
and that I should hike instead.

So often, when I experience feeling, or thoughtfulness,
it closes it down,
by stimulating my heel,
to tell me that I should hike instead of being allowed human experience.

Once again pressuring me, once again locking me away from my own humanity.

It very often does not allow me to read text.
It attacks my body after reading a few sentences at most.

It cuts off my continuity,
and even when I try to restart reading,
it would begin attacking me again,
blocking me from being able to read the text continuously
from its start to its end.

This also often leaves me pained and frustrated,
and helpless.

Knowing that even such a simple task,
text reading,
is forbidden.

That I'm effectively forbidden from living at all.

That my mind, nor my behavior are allowed to have any room.

That my consciousness and my actions are forced into a 1 inch box,
and any action, thought, or feeling,
that go outside of it, are immediately cut off.

It punishes me for any feeling of relief.
As soon as I feel relief, it immediately twitches my body,
to force me back onto tightness, stress, and negativity.

Every single feeling of relief, is a trigger for immediate, physical punishment.

It deprives me of my own capacity to react to anything at all.
As soon as something catches my attention,
and I am having an internal reaction to it,
the evil entity forcefully interrupts it by having its own reaction, on my body of all things,
either twitching me or attacking my body otherwise.

This is extremely painful emotionally,
because things having your attention is a major part of being alive,
and being engaged in life,
and robs me of that capacity,
it's very painful, depressing and frustrating.

He tortures me often when I enjoy food or water,
and he specifically targets the moments in which he detects real enjoyment,
like when the food feels delicious or reaches a satisfying moment,
or when drinking a cup of water when thirsty and immediately feeling satisfied by it,
he stings the inside of my ear when I experience those moments.

It's yet another one of his cruel and inhumane torture methods.

There is no place safe from him, he invades my life on full scale.
I can never feel safe, anywhere, and worst of all, even inside my own head.
I desperately want safety, shelter of some sort, some kind of a safe space.
It's currently a living nightmare.
He aggressively reacts to almost anything I do, think, feel, or experience,
by attacking my body one way or another.

I cannot think safely.
I cannot look at things safely.
I cannot hear things safely.
I cannot feel things safely.
I cannot imagine things safely.

My head, most private space, is complete unsafe these days.
There is no escape from him, anywhere, even in my head.

I cannot prepare to eat safely.
I cannot prepare to drink safely.

I cannot watch movies or TV shows at all.
I cannot try new things.
For if I do any of that, he will surely start attacking my body again.

I cannot play piano anymore, because he repeatedly kept attacking my body until I gave up.

I often cannot sit still and think of something, for he will begin attacking my body again.

I am always, day and night, under constant oppression.

This is extremely stressing, exhausting, frustrating, and depressing, and most of all, painful.

Painful that I cannot live my life.
Painful that I cannot have safety, anywhere, even within my own head.

My life is on lockdown, and even still, I'm con...

He takes my basic freedom away as an extortion method to force me into extreme self experimentation.

It robs be even of the freedom to dream, whatever I dream when I go to sleep.
My basic human rights are violated so horribly that even freedom of dreaming is now allowed.
When I dream, he reads my mind to know what I dream about,
and he has to express an opinion about that,
on my body,
even if it would wake me up;
even if I took sleeping pills with the intention of having a proper night of sleep,
he would deliberately attack my body while I'm dreaming,
because some of the dream's content triggered its attention.

This completely absurd and preposterous,
not only can I not feel safe from him inside my own head,
in my thoughts,
and feelings,
but now I cannot even feel safe from him in the dream world while sleeping,
he would attack my body even in reaction to whatever happens in my dreams while I am asleep.

This is terror on the personal level on degrees that are unheard of.

There is absolutely no shelter from him, no safety, I cannot even dream safely at night,
or he would suddenly attack my body,
he terrorizes me, day and night,
and there is no location nor time that I know to be safe from it.

It tries to lock my own mind inside my own feet.
By repeatedly stimulating my feet, all the parts of my feet,
the bottom, the top, the sides, the toes, the heels,
in reaction to my own thoughts,
in reaction to things that I see or hear,
it attempts to lock my own consciousness inside my own feet,
and prevent me from forming any actual connection with reality,
it attempts to isolate my mind and lock inside my own feet.

It's extremely painful thing to experience.
It hurts me very deeply,
it feels that I am deprived of connection,
deprived of meaning,
that I am unable to properly experience the world,
and instead to be trapped mentally inside my own feet,
that is extremely depriving and suffocating and painful,
and that evil thing has been doing that to me for the past 7 years.

It reverses any interest I show or see, or even possibly show or see,
in women's bodies, back into my own body,
in order to prevent me from forming any connection with the outside,
and trap me within myself and within my own body.

If I show any affection towards a woman's body part,
it then repeatedly harasses that body part in my own body,
in order to isolate me inside my own body,
and prevent me from forming any outside connection,
which is extremely painful and depriving.

After I showed some interest in women's lower leg area,
it would repeatedly stimulate, torture, and abuse my own lower legs,
in order to trap me within my own body,
and isolate me,
which caused me a lot of suffering, distress and frustration.

It labels my body parts with numbers, as a means of slavery,
and attacks my body parts whenever it wants to communicate a number.

It likes to use the hands and the feet, which are very intimate body parts,
to repeatedly communicate the number 31,
in order to cause suffering,
in order to make me hate that number
and in order to make me feel violated and abused and enslaved.

It is fixated on my pinky toe and thumb toe to repeatedly communicate me the number 53.

It tried to fucking program me with the numbers 31 and 53 by stimulating my hands, feet, pinky toe and thumb toe.

It uses my toes for counting,
which is extremely abusive and degrading thing to experience,
and it exclusively uses my body parts to communicate numbers;
it insist on deliberately using my body parts,
and most often my very intimate and personal body parts,
like hands, feet, toes, especially the toes, but fingers also,
to communicate numbers,
which is an extremely hateful and inhuman thing to experience,
and also, to make someone experience, it is an outright antisocial thing to do to someone.

It likes to violate repeatedly a body part that I have shown interest towards in a woman's body.
After having shown interest in women's lower legs,
it would repeatedly violate my own lower legs,
both entrapping me within my own body,
instead of allowing me to form an outside connection,
and also using that body part as means of control,
punishment, enslavement,
or an attempt to make me feel resentment,
to prevent me from liking women and their bodies at all,
to isolate me,
which is extremely painful and debilitating to experience.

It tries to lock down my own mind inside my own legs,
so, often when I experience something,
think, or feel,
it would attack my legs,
either by twitching my quadriceps,
or stimulating my lower legs,
to prevent me from forming any mental connection.

This is also a very painful, isolating and depriving thing to experience.

It tries to make me hate women, numbers, and human bodies,
by repeatedly punishing my body in relation to those things,
trying to turn me against what is otherwise good and natural.

It is a very sick thing to experience,
it is outright sickening,
an aggressive attempt to cause severe mental pathology,
and rewire the brain against itself.

It's literally trying to make me hate women, numbers, and bodies,
which are normal human experiences.

It uses numbers that appear on clocks nearby,
or the numerology of those numbers,
like some kind of "holiday" or ceremony,
to make me suffer.

It picks a number that is meant to cause me suffer,
like for instance, Emma Watson's birthday numerological numbers 19 and 38,
and it decides that those numbers should be used in celebration of my suffering,
like some kind of an anti-holiday,
so whenever those numbers would appear on a clock nearby,
or their numerology would,
it would torture my lower legs.

It would literally artificially create an anti-holiday,
that is based on time, rather than date, but sometimes date also,
to make it my "time of suffering", "time to receive pain", "time to be tortured".

It is a megalomaniacally antisocial thing to do to someone,
and it is a completely awful things to experience.

I cannot count the amount of times I otherwise felt so peaceful and fine,
and suddenly when either of those numbers appeared on the clock,
that evil thing would cause a concentrated, sharp sting in my ankles,
that would sting horribly in a burning manner,
severely disrupting the relaxation, wellness, or normalcy
that I would otherwise have.

It not only uses my body to communicate, but it aggressively wants to do it.
It waits for any thought or experience that could only be used as an excuse to do something
to my lower legs again.

It wants to hurt me, it wants to abuse my body, it wants to violate and molest me.

It would eagerly wait for any excuse it could only use just to violate my body once more.

It invades my decision processes by reading my thoughts when I try to decide something,
and attacks my body in response to thought of any decision,
trying force me to feel trapped,
manipulated,
invaded,
violated,
corrupted,
preventing me from thinking cleanly,
preventing me from thinking independently,
and trying to escalate tension within the decision making process,
in order to pull me further into it,
instead of calmly allowing me to manage myself and see the larger picture.

It constantly reads my thoughts, and often picks on me, for this thought or that thought,
by attacking my body,
preventing me from natural flow in daily life,
and trying to create "irritation" around thoughts that would otherwise be transient,
and not just thoughts,
but things that I see or hear,
it tries to create irritations around things,
to force me to go through my day in an awkward, twitchy, handicapped manner,
instead of allowing me to flow naturally.

Often, not allowing me to finish basic tasks, like finish breakfast in time.
Thousands, of tasks, left in an unfinished or broken state, some left forgotten,
unintentionally, due to have much disfunction that evil thing forces onto me.

My natural pace of life is often severely broken and disrupted,
I am just not allow to flow normally, as a person otherwise would.

Thousands of hours wasted, burned, on that evil thing picking on me, and won't let go.
Thousands of tasks creep hours beyond the time they should've been done,
into new phases, where I am already supposed to do something else,
leaving me highly dysfunctional,
with a highly broken pacing,
being unable to normally flow throughout my days in my activities,
experiences or even thoughts.

Like I said, it is sometimes so severe that it would even pick on me
for something that I happen to dream while being asleep,
attacking my body and forcing me to wake up,
not allowing me even a natural continuity of sleep.

Sometimes it would pick days, on which it would try a brute force attempt to "break me".
It would relentlessly, repeatedly attack my body in different ways,
day and night,
and not even allow me to sleep.

Either stressing me, like I am some kind of an electronic device, that is neither considered human,
nor a living being,
or outright aggressively trying to break me,
like I am some kind of a captured spy,
or otherwise,
while I am just a law abiding citizen.

I don't want programmatic reactions on my body

I wish to be allowed freedom of thought,
just to think normally,
like humans do,
like I was able,
in my 20's,
in my teenage years,
in my childhood years.

It seems that I am now under this vicious trap under which,
my thoughts are under constant, severe scrutiny by an automated program,
that immediately expresses its opinions on my body,
that's a horrible, terrible thing to experience,
it's the worst,
and I don't want to have that in my life.

Here I am sitting, just trying to construct some organized information structure,
and that thing is immediately intercepting my thoughts and attacking my body.

I can't function, nor live under those conditions, it's absolutely not normal,
it's a completely pathological state,
and I can't have that in my life.

It forces pathology onto me.

Like I said, I am just, calmly, organizing information,
I am not making decisions,
and I am certainly not acting,
I am just trying to calmly,
build an information base,
I am just trying to do calm, structured work,
and that evil thing,
is immediately intercepting me with its opinions,
by attacking my body,
acting as though everything is happening in real time,
and there is no space,
no room,
no calmness,
nor tranquility,
applies immediate pressure and hostility onto me,
when I am just trying to do calm and organized work,
and I absolutely,
I repeat,
absolutely,
don't its presence,
I really, truly, don't want that thing to be around,
neither when I'm working,
nor ever.

I don't want that evil fucking thing in my life.

I am fucking trying to work calmly and it fucking attacks me with its fucking opinions,
disrupting my peaceful balance.

GET THAT EVIL FUCKING THING OUT OF MY LIFE ALREADY

That evil thing does not allow me, any calm and controlled thought or behavior.
It's always fucking pressuring me and pushing me around,
finding something to pick on and immediately attacking me,
I am sick and tired of that.

I am sick and tired of being attacked by that evil fucking thing.

It's like it doesn't allow me even room to breath,
it's always suffocating me,
always strangulating my throat,
is like I have no room at all with that hateful evil thing,
no room for thought,
no room for action,
no room for experience,
no room for calm and structured thought nor work,
or any kind of calm and structured activity at all,
no room for calmness,
no room for structure period,
it's always fucking pushing me,
it's pushing and pushing and pushing and pushing and I AM FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THAT.

No room for life at all basically, with that evil thing.

It doesn't allow my life to happen basically.

IT FUCKING FILLS ALL THE SPACE THAT WOULD'VE OTHERWISE BEEN FOR MY LIFE
AND REPLACES IT WITH ITSELF

IT WANTS TO REPLACE ME AND MY LIFE WITH ITSELF

IT WANTS ME TO DIE

IT WANTS ME LIFE TO NOT BE ALLOWED TO HAPPEN

IT WANTS TO REPLACE EVERYTHING WITH ITSELF

THAT EVIL FUCKING THING

PLEASE GET RID OF IT

It literally tries to "train me" to zug only

Do you know what zug is?
It's a term taken from WoW,
which means just attacking and killing things.

That's basically the only thing it allows me to do,
constant, thoughtless action.

If I do anything else, anything at all but that,
anything but thoughtless action,
it fucking attacks my body.

It doesn't allow any room for the mind at all.

It also does not allow for any space between information,
like between knowledge, to plans, to actions, to opinions,
for the entity,
it's as though space does not exist between those things at all,
and any mention of any information that it has any opinion about,
even by numbers that appear on a clock nearby,
trigger an immediate attack on the body.

There is basically no room for calm and organized thoughts to happen,
no room for structure,
for organized, calm behavior.

The entity demands all information to be expressed immediately,
on my body,
and no room for calm thought nor structure is allowed at all,
and any attempt at making it results in an immediate physical punishment.

It constantly tries to push me around like a fucking Unisol.
It is literally trying to train me to be a Unisol.

It is constantly attacking me and pushing me around,
unless,
and only unless,
I am doing thoughtless action,
like zugging in a video game.

Anything but zugging results in physical punishment.

It only wants me to constantly fucking ZUG and ZUG and ZUG,
LIKE A FUCKING SOLIDER.

IT IS TRYING TO MOLD ME IN A ZUG MINDED FUCKING BRAIN CONTROLLED UNISOL

AND I AM SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF THAT FUCKING TREATMENT

I DON'T WANT TO BE A UNISOL

I DON'T WANT TO EXCLUSIVELY BE ALLOWED TO LIVE THROUGH ZUGGING

HUMANS CANNOT FUCKING FUNCTION IN THAT MANNER I DON'T WANT TO BE A FUCKING ATTACK BOT

LET ME LIVE A FUCKING NORMAL HUMAN LIFE WITH SPACE AND ROOM IN IT

SPACE FOR THOUGHTS FOR FEELINGS FOR EXPERIENCES

SPACE FOR FUCKING LIFE TO BE ALLOWED TO FUCKING HAPPEN

It constantly interrupts my thoughts, feelings and mental processes.
It very often doesn't allow me completion of mental processes.
It breaks them apart.

It lives me with constant, broken thoughts, feelings, and experiences.

I am just not allowed mental coherency nor continuity nor completed thoughts, feelings, or experiences.

It breaks everything apart.

It breaks my mind and all that it experiences and remembers apart.

Everything is broken.

Experiences, and memories all broken all fragmented, nothing is complete.

Everything is damaged, corrupted, shattered,

I am not allowed any coherency nor completion of normal, even basic, mental processes,

nor experiences, activities, nor memories.

It completely breaks down all of my experiences and memories.

It fully shatters down my life, shatters and fragments it, severely.

It leaves me with a broken, fragmented and torn mind.

I am unable to maintain any solidity, fluidity, coherency, continuity, nor completion of anything.

And as soon some mental functionality resurfaces, it shatters it down back again.

It makes a habit to repeatedly shatter my mind even as it tries to manifest once more.

It shatters me over and over and over and over again, no matter how many times I try,
to merely live.

It repeatedly breaks and shatters all of my life.

Constantly living me broken.

It's been going on for 7 years,

and it's only getting worse,

it's only getting more aggressive.

It's as though it really wants to take away my consciousness,

it wants to live me with just a body,

possibly even a healthy body,

if I succeed with the training,

but a dysfunctional,

shattered,

unhealthy,

and incoherent mind.

It wants me to experience mental death.

It wants the body to exist, but the mind to be effectively removed.

It's been effectively killing, destroying, shattering and fragmenting my mind,

over the past 7 years,

and as I said, unfortunately,

it's only been getting worse.

These times, as soon as any calm thought or activity resurfaces,

that evil thing aggressively pushes me back into despair.

It just doesn't want my mind to be allowed to exist,

at all.

Particularly, the calm, slow, analytical, perceptive mind;
emotional intelligence as well;

it wants to erase these parts from me completely.

It wants to turn me into something that just acts but does not think.

Something that doesn't have any space mental thought and action.

Something is not thought at all, something that is just action.

Some kind of automated fighter, or servant.

Not a person anymore.

It wants me to die.

It insists, on that I die, that my mind, me basically, that I'll die, fully and completely,
without any space at all left, for thoughtfulness or calm experience,
just mindless action,
not me anymore,
something that used to be me,
but not anymore,
something that has effectively experienced mental death,
through programmatic,
systematic,
destruction of the mind,
using highly advanced,
futuristic technology,
and used to be a person,
but turned into a mindless soldier, or servant,
not a person anymore,
a mentally dead existence.

It often picks a sudden moment, possibly when a time appears on the clock,
or whatever it is that happens,
I don't entirely know how it chooses to deliberate moments,
in which it would suddenly, repeatedly, aggressively, and violently,
would twitch me,
usually the quadriceps,
which are the largest muscles in the body,
presumably to generate the strongest effect.

At the moment it happens I know with 100% certainty that is not my own body,
not my own nervous system, nor my subconscious, nothing at all to do with me.

It's done to me artificially by futuristic tech.

When those moments happen, the repeated, persistent, violent twitching,
gives off a strong feel,
that it's down to spiral me out of control,
with very strong, focused and violent persistence,
to really penetrate my mind and inject, or sink in, that feeling of violent madness.

Like an a focused aggressive attempt at pushing that madness onto me,
with such strong consistency,
until my mind would give in and would succumb to that violent rhythm,
so I would be undone,
so I would feel broken,
subverted,
so I would lose confidence in myself,
so I would not be me anymore,
but be subverted by some kind of a violent aggression that they force on me.

I don't know what would happen to me if I succumbed to that evil shit.

It wouldn't be good though, that's for certain.

It's yet another one of their repeated tactics for the destruction, or deconstruction of my mind.

I said deconstruction because it's as though they want my mind to lose structure,
to lose coherency,
they want to break and shatter,
they want to prevent a solid form,
they're trying to eliminate a solid and fluid mental shape and experience.

Simply put, they're trying to destroy me, and it's yet another one of their programmatic tactics, in doing so.

And I've been very unfortunately been picked, as their expendable test subject, who life doesn't hold any human value.

It uses clock, numbers, words, letters, languages, and also, human body parts,
to torture me,
to inflict pain.

It wants me to divert me against all those normal, healthy, and even integral parts of human life.

It wants me to hate humanity.

It wants me to hate the very basic things that make up human life.

It wants me to hate all that is good an useful.

It wants to turn me against the world, against reality, against humanity, against what is healthy, against what is normal,
against what is good, against what is useful, and most of all, against myself.

It wants to turn me against myself, against what is good for me, against what I value, and against the world.

It's an evil parasitic worm that persistently ruins my life and causes me a terrible amount of severe suffering.

I truly, genuinely wish it to go away, forever, and never ever return.

He doesn't punish me for eating food; he punishes me for enjoying it.
It's specifically when he senses that I'm strongly enjoying the food that I am eating, is when he punishes me for that experience,
that punishment of enjoying food;
by stinging the inside of my ear.

When it has effectively disturbed me and killed my enjoyment,
it doesn't bother me any further during the meal.

Also if I just arbitrarily eat something, without deriving any significant pleasure from it,
it would not punish my ear.

It's not about the eating.
It's about enjoying the meal.

It's about making me extremely frustrated and agonized with repeatedly having my otherwise delicious meals,
or even snacks,
ruined for me.

It's about that I experience the suffering, of something good being put in my vicinity,
but that I would get hurt whenever I access it and derive enjoyment from it.

Not get hurt for the access; get hurt for the enjoyment.

So I would be frustrated, agonized, and depressed, that enjoying something basic, as food,
or often, a mere cup of water,
is immediately punished by physical torture, using futuristic tech that can attack my body at any place and time.

A very difficult thing that he puts me through, in the past 7 years,
is,
allowing me to get to the end of a piece of content,
such as text or video,
and not allowing me to finish it.

A block of text, a TV show, a movie; I would get nearly to the end.

And it would keep attacking me at the end, preventing me from finishing that specific content.

As I want to get it over with and move on, I naturally, try again several times,

but as I keep trying over and over, it insist on blocking me from finishing the content.

It's an absurd thing to do, to make someone feel, they spent all this time to complete something,

and right when they're about to get it done, and move on, they're not allowed to.

It often doesn't allow me to read text.
It attacks my body a few sentences in.
Or at some point, it just keeps attacking my body over and over again, no matter how many times I try to restart.
It's a basic human capability, and he prevents me from it.

He very aggressively prohibits me from enjoying passive entertainment.
He seems to heavily dislike the idea of me watching people do on-screen, while I just lay back and watch.
It's like he dislikes it on principle or something.
So whenever I just watch something, especially if I get immersed and he senses it, or that I enjoy, he begins to attack my body,
and destroy the experience.
The more laid back I am while the more dramatic are the events that appear on-screen, the more aggravated he gets.
Like I said, it's like he's doing it on some kind of principle, that he sees a discrepancy between my relaxation and the tension on-screen.
The idea of me watching engaging action or intensity while being fully laid back and relaxed,
he never likes that, it seems to irritate him, make him feel a need to immediately attack me.
That's a very consistent behavior of his in the past 7 years.

A very particular, strong memory, that provides a strong example of this behavior,
is when I watched the 2019 movie "Knives Out",
the movie was reaching its peak moment,
in which the identity of the murderer was being revealed.
The entire movie was building up towards that moment, and I was watching it with great interest,
while feeling perfectly relaxed, calm, and laid back, as I naturally do when I watch movies,
throughout most of my life.

And so, when the movie reached its peak intensity, that moment, in which the truth was getting revealed,
he started violently twitching my lower legs, preventing me from enjoying the experiencing,
preventing me from properly immersing it either,
basically destroying it, destroying the whole experience,
that most interesting, most intense moment, towards which the whole movie was building up,
he decided to destroy it.

Now, to make it worse, as that moment felt meaningful, because the whole movie was building up towards it,
and I still wanted to experience it, even if it was destroyed at first,
I tried watching it again,
and he still kept violently twitching my lower legs as I tried doing so.

This made me feel pained and frustrated, but I still wanted to salvage that experience, whatever I could still get from it,
so I could experience what I could still and get a feeling of resolution, that the movie would naturally provide.

And the painful fact, is that although I tried countless of times to rewatch that scene,
no matter how many times I tried,
every time I did,
he would still violently twitch my lower legs,
like there is some kind of a violent raging disease in there that is suddenly blowing up out of control.

Finally, I understood that he didn't like me watching an intense scene while sitting relaxed myself.

So I got up on my feet, and I watched the scene while standing; and only then did he allow me to watch it.

He, on some kind of a twisted principle, so much disliked the discrepancy between the scene's tension, and my relaxation,

that he insisted on severely disturbing my body as I was going to watch it in a relaxed state and physical position specifically.

He now as though needs, that my physical or mental state would have to match whatever is being shown on screen, or even music being heard,

often by sending a signal to my heel, to "hike", when some action is going on, or a music that feels engaging.

He now, by some kind of principle, does not allow me enjoy engagement and more so, intensity, without being active myself.

And therefore making me give up almost completely on all forms of passive entertainment.

This means, no movies, no TV shows, no Youtube videos, I have largely, and unfortunately, given up on all that.

It communicates like a virus, like an infection.
Instead of independently saying whatever it wants to say,
in a dedicated context, and a contain manner,
it infects other contexts with itself and what it has to communicate,
which is by the way,
completely of no value to me, at least 99% of the time,
basically interrupting me,
and preventing me from properly experiencing whatever it is that I was,
whether text reading,
whether watching some form of video content,
it just attacks my body to communicate its own thing,
hijacking whatever words or numbers are used in the content I am currently experiencing,
and denying me of the experience.

It literally insists on using that method of communication.
There is no way it would just communicate normally, in its own "window", whether with voice, text, numbers, images or videos.
It has to hijack other things,
it has to infect,
it has to overwrite,
like a virus overwrites the data of the cells it infects,
that's exactly how that evil thing behaves and communicates.

By hijacking itself into other contexts, that have absolutely nothing to do with anything it has to say.

He constantly breaks my natural rhythm.
I go about my ordinary life at home, doing ordinary things, peacefully.
And suddenly he attacks my body out of nowhere.
It feels like an extreme disruption,
and it feels unnatural to keep doing the task at that point,
because my natural rhythm was distorted;
but it also feels unnatural to stop doing the task either,
because I was doing something;
I was in the middle of doing something;
I intended to do it,
and it doesn't feel natural to just leave it.

It feels a lot more frustrating due to the fact that by now,
I have left so many things undone,
things I was doing,
and that thing would attack my body,
often repeatedly,
and I would just leave many tasks unfinished.

It hurts, it disrupts, and destabilizes me.
It destroys my integrity, my wholeness.

Like I said, he constantly breaks me to pieces.
He does not allow me to maintain wholeness.

He shatters my experiences,
my thoughts,
activities,
feelings,
and memories.

He makes a habit, to constantly leave me in fragments.

Whenever I create inner space, relaxing my inner state,
he stimulates my heel,
to "fill it" with an impulse to hike.

As though he wants me to be always on the move or under stress or pressure,
or operate without any mental space, relaxation,
or just feeling laid back.

It's like I am trying to make myself feel more laid back,
and he stimulates my heel to force me to move instead.

Like he's saying "no you don't get to relax I want you to go and hike".

It's this sadistic, slave driver type of thing to do to someone,
and he does that to me all the time.

For 7 years, it's reversed any interest I've shown in women's feet, back onto my own body,
making me feel sick, miserable and disgusted.

Whether it was with Tina Setkic,
whether with Emma Watson,
whether with Samara Weaving,

ever since, just in my thought, I was kissing Tina's feet,
the evil entity would repeatedly stimulate my own feet,
trying to reverse it back onto my own body,
which naturally makes me feel miserable.

I don't know exactly how to describe this how it feels,
miserable is the best word,
but it's this twisted thing that it does to me,
it uses the feet thing as means of control,
it reverses my own behavior related to a woman's body,
back onto my own body,
which feels sickening,
I don't know exactly how to describe it,
like it's isolating me within myself,
and reversing what was meant to be about the woman's body,
back onto my own body instead,
it feels sickening and miserable,
it's a very hateful thing to experience.

I show interest in a woman's body,
and that evil thing reverses it back on to my own body,
permanently,
for 7 years,
and also goes ahead and uses it to exercise control over me,
it's despicable,
it takes something that is meant to be interaction with the outside,
but it removes the outside part,
it isolates it within my own body,
it entraps me within my own body,
it makes it all about my own body, rather than a woman's body,
isolating me,
reversing it back at me and isolating it within myself and within my own body,
making me feel isolated, miserable,
and disgusted;
that feeling of "reversal", that it takes something that is meant to be an interaction with the outside,
and it reverses it back onto me,
it feels disgusting.

Whatever interest I have shown in women's feet in the past,
it reacts to it by instead making me feel a bunch things in my own feet instead,
on daily basis,
for 7 years,
that's disgusting,
despicable,
hateful.

It takes what was meant to be about a woman's body,
an interaction with the outside,
and reverses it back onto my own body,
and locks it within my own body,
making the whole thing feel reversed,
like instead of interacting, even mentally,
it's fucking reversed back at me, back at my own body,
and make feel isolated,
entrapped,
within myself,
within my own body,
and also then repeatedly use it as means of abuse and control.

I am so sick and disgusted with that treatment.

It's possibly the most hateful thing that was ever done to me.

To disconnect me from interest of another person's body and reverse it back onto my own body,
and trap it within myself, isolate me, entrap me, and repeatedly do it to me over and over again,
to repeat the suffering.

I cannot tell how much I am horribly disgusted by that hateful treatment.

This thing is now stimulating my heel when I am writing "disgusted",
to tell me that I am disgusted because I exercise, which it views as "hiking".

But let's face it, I'm just expressing my true feelings on the matter.

I believe I've described very well the very, sick thing it's been doing to me.

It's a very, very sick thing that it's been doing to me.

Reversing, mental or physical interaction with another person's body,
back onto myself,
that's a very sick thing to do to someone.

The fact that it wouldn't let go, after doing just once, 10 times, even 100 times, even 1,000 times,
but it keeps doing that evil shit to me for 7 whole years,
I cannot just possible describe how sick that makes me feel.

How much psychological suffering it has cause by doing this sick thing,
of reversing, even thought interaction with a woman's body,
back on to my own body;
this very act of "reversal",
it feels so fucking painful,
it feels twisted,
like this really twisted thing to do to someone,
it feels sickeningly twisted,
and then,
it would repeatedly use sickening, twisted "reversal",
to torture me with that,
for the next 7 years.

That evil thing is a sadistic sociopath.

It has a sick, evil and twisted mind.

I really, genuinely wish to go away, permanently, so I will never have to suffer
from its sadistic, twist, sick, sociopathic behavior ever again.

It's June 19th 2026,

the entity is repeatedly torturing the sensitive nerves in my feet,
forcing me to scream my lungs out,
forcing me into extreme suffering.

After I scream my lungs out,
it stops for a while,
and I start breathing,
and relaxing,
and then I think,
that I would like to have allies,
and then it immediately sharply attacks the nerves in my feet again,
and it repeats that every single time I think that specific thing,
having allies;
it tortures me for wanting me to have allies.

It would do the same each time I thought of having a supportive and caring framework to grow under,
it sharply and violently torture the nerves in my feet each time I thought that.

As though it insists of isolating me from the world,
from good,
from allies,
friends,
people who would care for me.

Even now, as I'm writing this,
it is still torturing the nerves in my feet.

It's doing different things, it's not the same each time,
but it's very easy to tell that the attacks are deliberate,
that it's done deliberate to incur suffering.

It's an evil, hateful, repulsive evil thing.

Whenever I see a woman, and I like her,
the evil entity tortures my feet,
as though it wants me to suffer for liking women.

I remind you it also tortures me for enjoying food.

It tortures me when I experience positive feelings.

It doesn't want me to like food.

It doesn't want me to like women.

It wants me to be an evil cold hearted machine, just like he is.

He started torturing the sensitive nerves at the bottom of my feet,
after I had shown affection to a few women's feet.

He deliberately turned something that was meant to be affectionate towards a woman's body
into the torture of my own body instead.

The feet are a delicate, sensitive part of the body.

And he would use that to inflict the highest amount of suffering on me.

By deliberately targeting the sensitive nerves located at the bottom of my feet,
and torturing my body, by violating them, forcing me to feel terrible things in those areas,
a terrible amount of suffering, by the repeated torture of those sensitive nerves,
which doesn't feel like pain, it feels like something worse than pain,
it would overstimulate them causing me and terrible feeling of violation and suffering,
and it would repeat that process over and over again, for hours,
repeatedly, over 7 years.

In his megalomania,
he aggravates his torture when I complain about specific things that he does to me,
especially when I complain about it with a significant feeling of contempt,
is when he makes it a lot worse.

According to him, if I express any contempt towards him torturing me,
then I am meant to be tortured even harder.

He is an evil, megalomaniac, cruel, sadistic monster.